This week I have lost 2 friends to this horrible disease and it made me think about my own mortality.......I think mostly i get along by 'pretending' it's not really happening. It's a coping mechanism but to be honest who would want to live with such a dark cloud hanging over you 24/7. I cannot explain what that feels like, it frightens me to death.
So far, since this journey began I have been aware of more deaths than in my 30 year nursing career. These have been of people I have met, spoken to and had regular contact with. It is heartbreaking.
Some helped me when I was first diagnosed and some I think I have helped since. I hope to god that something is 'discovered' soon that changes the future for lung cancer.
I just want them all to know that they touched my heart and I will never forget any of them:
Lia, Carolyn, Trevor, Bill, Linda, Linda, Kate, Penny, Monica, Dean, Ashleigh, Lee, Barry, Lynne, I spoke to you the most, you will always be in my heart.
